By I Am Renee
OCTOBER 28TH…
Today is my birthday — and the launch of something I once dreamed of.
But if I’m being honest, I don’t feel like celebrating.
People are posting pictures and videos of me, memories from a time when I smiled without effort. But as I look at them, I barely recognize that woman. She looks like me, but she’s not me.
The energy, the confidence, the light — it’s like it all got left behind somewhere I can’t reach.
Lately, I’ve been hiding.
I’m not hiding because I don’t care. It’s because I’m embarrassed by how much this illness, this fight, and this pain have taken from me.
My body isn’t the same. My mind isn’t the same. And honestly, I don’t even know if I’m the same.
I’ll be truthful instead of pretending I’m fine.
I feel disconnected from everything. I feel distant from who I was and who people think I am. I even feel disconnected from the world around me.
But somewhere deep down, I know that even in this lost place, something in me is still fighting. That’s why I created “Brain on Fire – Small But Mighty – Pituitary Awareness.”
It’s not coming from the healed version of me — it’s coming from the hurting one.
Because the truth is, I’m still learning how to exist in this new skin.
I may be hiding now. I believe one day I’ll step out again. I will not emerge as who I was. I will come forth as who I’m becoming.
Until then, I’ll keep whispering to myself: You’re still here. You still matter. And even if you’re broken, your purpose isn’t.
💛 #BrainOnFire #SmallButMighty #IAmRenee
“ Renée Reflections “ 